A change much needed.

Today I, Nicole Cruz. Watched the movie Joseph Smith: The Prophet of the Restoration. I just have to say, wow! It touched me so much, it touched me more than anything I have encountered. I seriously bawled like 30 mins worth of tears. It was so precious, and warm, and it felt right. I know that Joseph Smith was a true prophet of God. I just know, and it IS a AMAZING feeling. After that I watched some Mormon messages. and they hit the heart but not as much as the Joseph Smith movie. I loved it. I want the whole world to see this movie! I was sort of curious at the beginning but now I remember how I felt last summer. I felt the Spirit, which testified to me that Joseph Smith was a true prophet. The person that I think I want to share this message with the most is my friend Brad. I really want to show him this! Ahh this is incredible.

Josh Groban can take me behind the Middle School.

So today is July 30. 19 days until Nat comes home! My stomach hurts like a bitch, I forgot to eat dinner yesterday. I was too busy blogging! Now I'm eating some nasty eggs without anything. My stomach hurts more.

Today I made some vajitas, I think I'm a horrible blogger. I don't know how to blog about important issues or stupid shit for that matter. I don't really care about anything.

I've felt like shit lately, don't know why. I keep listening to the sad playlist on Grooveshark. I haven't felt the need to talk to anybody, actually I don't want to. I like my solitude at times.

There's this new bitch I like, her name is Kreayshawn. She may be replacing Nicki Minaj real soon, and real good! She raps and got the tats! Can you say #theonlywhitegirlwithswag!

I've been avoiding everything I am supposed to do. To do list: Finish the Human Centipede, finish the Joseph Smith movie, call my parents, clean my room, and exercising. Talk about being a lazy bitch. Haha. Chet school starts in 16 muthaeffing days. I am dreading that damn school.

Dang it whenever this certain person talks to me, I like him like I did before. I can be talking to another nigga, but all I can think of is this other nigga.

Whaaa?! What the fuck? I heard something disturbing. Mr. DonGlover might be dating Adele! Damn the devil to hell! Donald always talking about these hot bitches, but he dating Adele. #smh.

The rain splatters on my window, as I type this very sentence, and listen to Keane. The thunder fills the silence in my house. The faint whispers from my closet haunts me. Haha Jk I ain't about to get all Edgar Allen Poe on this bitch!

Well Peace and blessings to y'all.

Nicknames in case I forget!

Meghan -Apollo

Natalie- Duffy

Me- Tucker

Denver- Lebeef

BZ- Pigskin

Nick- Honky

Shum- Rashonda

Courtnasty - Africa

Dusty- Bobby

Tron - Zeus

Ryan French- Pokey

Ryan T- Lt. Dangle

Joe- The Sarg

Zach- T Rex

Dallin- Dallys wally

Brian Bean- Big Red!

There are available names: The Amazon, Mojave Desert, and Skinhead.

July 24, 2011. 1:01 A.M

Dang I am just listening to Lil Rob. That beaner knows what I like! Anyways I notice I have a mean streak in me a lil'. When people tell me they, or their pastor went on a mission. I want to laugh, but only if they aren't LDS. They go on a mission for two weeks, while Mormon men go for two years. Two FREAKING years!! And it's not like they can upload stuff on Facebook, like I see the people who go on a mission for two weeks can.

Three weeks until school starts, and Natalie comes home. I can't wait! She will be home for two months, until she leaves October 11 for her mission. That will be the saddest day. I am ready to start and finish school! I want to go to BYU already! I miss my Meghan, and our little schemes we would do. I won't see her for at least two years :( I miss e'erybody from the Carriage Cove, well almost everybody.

It's Sunday already, I have to go to church in the morning. I am horrible, I laugh while the singers sing, the thing is they can't sing. No one has the heart to tell them they can't, plus I told my mom already. But she hasn't stopped singing....

May 21, supposely the end of the world. haha

Damn it feels good to be a pimp. Yesterday was the last supernatural episode for the season. Cass turns me on. I wish I had my own angel. That would be b.a. Today is so boring! It was raining all day yesterday, and today its sunny and everyone is just in their room.

I’m going to Utah in less than a month. I arrive there June 16. I can’t wait. Theres a Kid Cudi concert there June 27! and I want to go so bad! I might. don’t know yet. I want a Kid Cudi and Kanye West, and a Cholo Adventure shirt. Next weeks episode of America’s Best dance crew is Kanye West! I can’t wait. School is almost out. 12 school days left of school. I have so much homework and projects to do! I want straight A’s. Shit ain't gon' happen though!

People I wouldn't want to see as Strippers.

"Prostitution is the oldest profession in the world, and I, madame, am a professional".

-David Spade

-Short Mexican guys. (especially with a mustache!)

-Rosie O’ Donald

-Danny Devito

-Rapper Fat Joe

-Hugh Hefner

-Any sibling of mine

-Robert Pattinson

-Gucci Mane

-Steve Buscemi

-The heavyset chick in Glee

-Gabriel Igleasias

-Fergie

-Kevin, Phylis, Stanley, Dwight from the office

-Chevy Chase

-The other plump girl from Glee

-Robin Williams

-John Travolta

-Tom Hanks

-Nicholas Cage, currently

-Queen Latifah

-Marilyn Manson

-Courtney Love

-Steven Tyler

-Carrot Top

-Lyle Lovett

Some day in April

3 month and 11 days until I go to Utah! I can’t wait. I miss my sister and everyone else so much. She’s supposed to get her mission calling this month. I kinda don’t want her to go anymore, I will miss her too much. But it’s her decision and I respect what she’s doing. I sometimes regret stop learning about the gospel. I wish I could. But at a decent hour. Seminary starts way too early for my taste.

I have so much missing work, I’m horrible I know! I should prolly get up on that. I need to study for the act too!

My teacher Mrs. Simpson has pictures of Paul Peterson everywhere! He’s obviously his favorite student! I will change that, haha jk.

I recently talk to a friend of mine that i wasn't in speaking terms with, because her dad was beating her up. She asked me to give a note to her bf for her. Super awkward! Especially since he likes me, and texts me everyday.

I have only senior year and then college. BYU here I come! I hope I get in, i think I will. or not University of Utah is easy to get into! I have to apply early though! I skip too much.

I love Bz even though he doesn’t like Nicki Minaj, hes still amazing. His words always get me when he talks about the gospel. He is still a missionary to me.

Oh yeah Osama Bin Laden is dead.